“A V I E ”
Faith in me.
Thursday, September 5, 2013 || Thursday, September 05, 2013
Today, was Teacher's Day. For the first time of my life, I was actually excited for this day.
Because I spent shit load of money on the presents and cards I had for my teachers. I wanted to see their happy faces, their smile when they get my present.
They were thankful, happy. And that made me glad. But, when I got home..
My heart was shattered into pieces.
Everything was sad.
I felt as though things were unfair to me. That no one cared at all.
I wanted someone's warmth, around me. I miss the feeling of being embraced, with such love and care.
I wanted to cry, but I didn't want to be noticed. I didn't want anyone to ask me to why I was sad, why I was crying.
I didn't want anyone to mind this crying for at least 5 mins. But why it that so difficult? Why is it that everytime I had to cry, someone somewhere will ask me.
Do you know it makes me feel much more worst if I told you? Do you know it makes me feel even more shitty than I already was?
Sometimes, I want that warm embrace. But sometimes, I wish people just don't care about me for just 5 mins. Just five minutes.
I want to cry everything out, and not worry anyone. Because sometimes... Crying everything out is the only thing you can do; because even though you try to solve the problem, the solution makes no sense.
There's no way out any more.
The only way to let it go, is to cry.
Cry everything out,
and everything will be okay.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013 || Wednesday, September 04, 2013
Don't be afraid of wanting to chase your dreams. Don't be afraid of people laughing at you because its what you WANT
. Its YOUR
goal and its all up to you,how to achieve it.
Why let people look down & laugh at you? They don't have the right to judge us.
Heck, they don't even have to right to even laugh at us. Because each individual has their OWN
goal. They each has something they want to achieve. Be it a good thing or a bad thing, its something that they want to go all out for.
For example, I want to be a motivational speaker. And by that, I write & talk to people out of depression. But that's what they normally do. But aside from that, I do research on how these people(depressive people) think because their mindset is far more different than those who is happy.
What about you, what do you want to be?
Reach out for the stars and don't let anyone stop you from getting what you want. You may fail but you can always get back up on your feet and continue walking this journey. Don't let depression bring you down. Don't let those razors near your skin.
Everything will be okay,
Chase your dreams.
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