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Monday, June 23, 2014 || Monday, June 23, 2014
I don't know what's wrong with me today.
I woke up at 3am, perspiring and I had tears.
I honestly dont know what happened.
I went back to sleep, woke up again at 10am and again, tears.
My mood, completely destroy because of god knows what reason.
I sat at the corner of my room, thinking about the shit in life and my heart started to ache.
I thought to myself that I should die and earth wasnt the place for me.
I got up, slowly walked to the shower.
Sat there, and cried my lungs out.
I wanted to scream, but no voice came out.
I punched my chest, but my screams were never heard.
The tears just kept falling, so many emotions carried.
I honestly don't know the reason behind those tears,
but it honestly hurt.
I was so tempted to self inflict, but i couldnt.
I am clean for so long, i just cant.
I dropped the knife and left the shower.
My heart still aches.
god help me.
