“naive. ”

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loving yourself has always been something that you struggled to do,
so what made you believe that you could love someone else and be truly happy?
you close your eyes every night thinking that the next day,
everything will be okay.
that's what you thought.
but honestly, things never get better, they just fade away.
problems, one by one, stacked up into one big pile
of emotions, insecurities and fear.

each engulfing your mind, your heart,
making you believe that you don't deserve this pain
this sadness
wanting to give it all up, thinking maybe
'i deserve better'
lying to yourself that this isn't what you want.
you're so confident that you aren't,
never,
the problem of all these bad ships.

but you know what's even worst than a heartbreak?
not knowing until the end of time,
that the reason of that heartbreak,
is you.
always so fixated on believing that you're perfect,
that you are always right.
but wrong is all you've ever done,
and hurt was all you've ever caused.

you don't deserve true love,
you've hurt too much people for God to be able to love you.
you never deserve the happiness others feel,
with their happy partners.
you should be all alone,
until you realize,
that the only reason why no one can love you,
is because you never started by loving yourself.