“naive. ”

July 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 September 2014 October 2014 November 2014 December 2014 January 2015 February 2015 March 2015 June 2015 January 2016 May 2016 August 2016 September 2016 November 2016 January 2017 October 2018 November 2018 December 2018 January 2019 February 2019 April 2020 May 2020 December 2022 August 2023



prick my little finger, just to feel something
gasping, choking for air
why is it so hard to breathe
why has it been so difficult to explain
all these spiraling emotions
going through my mind

i dont want to mess it up
i want it to be different
i'm not like the others
i'm hoping that i can bring you your smile
but i wonder,
when will that ever come?

the words i spit out
when i see you happy
with someone else thats not me
leaves a bitter taste
of white lies
and conceit

it gets harder to breathe,
the more you get close,
the more i beg for the catch of air
you're bad for me
yet you keep me wanting more

bleeding little finger,
will you help me feel?
help me erase the emotions
turn them into something new
because i'm never going to be 'her'